Life is tough. Life is challenging. Life is a gift.

I do not have the words.

I have been trying to figure out how to relay my thoughts for about a month now, but I just cannot find the words.

And that’s the problem.

Never have I ever been at a loss for words. I may not say them publicly, but it’s no secret that I always have an opinion. For good or bad.

When I was younger it always got me in trouble. Now I have learned to harness it and for the most part utilize as an asset.

But now? I do not have the words.

It all happened so fast. Or slowly. Depends on how you look at it really when it comes to a car accident.

However you choose to look at it, I cannot shake it. I just can’t no matter how hard I try.

The morning of March 1 changed me forever. I am still here though.

That’s what I have to keep reminding myself. For that, I am truly overwhelmingly thankful.

Since March 1 the world may have changed completely for me, but I just got a head start on everyone else I guess.

The early morning of March 1 as part of our car accident I saw things that nobody should ever have to see. I do not wish the images in my head on anyone.

How do you shake them? How do you forget?

Or should I do either one of those things?

I just choose to trust in a higher power that I know has a plan for me.

I am supposed to be here. It’s that simple.

I have unfortunately dealt with things most will never deal with in their life as many of my friends know, but my mother before she passed away used to tell me it was because “God knows I could handle it and grow from it.”

Sometimes that is hard to understand, but I choose to believe that my life has value.

In fact, I know it does. I see it every single day when I look at my children. Their smiles remind me that everything I do is for them and my family.

Since March 1 the world has also evolved into something completely different for everyone.

COVID-19 has changed our perspectives in so many ways just as my car accident has changed me in many other ways.

There may be no words for what happened in my life on March 1 or what we are dealing with right now with the coronavirus, but there is growth opportunity.

There always is a chance to grow, and I choose to learn, be thankful and flourish.

Life is so many things, but mainly it’s what you make it in the long run.

Life is tough. Life is challenging. Life is a gift.